w/ Jenny. I looove that store. Lol (x Well we didn’t really find anything to wear. The costumes are too expensive. I wanted to be Alice in Wonderland, but it’s too expensive. So we might just be Referees.
when i’m on the computer when it’s winter time. And it’s really cold and cloudy outside, and i’m just on the computer with a blanket around me, and i just start playing summer- ish songs. Or like Hawaiian/ ukulele songs. Idk why, but I just really like doing that for some reason. It’s really calming to me.
If it’s summer, and i listen to songs like that, it’s just not the same.. lmao.
I went to Great Mall with Amanda to buy my homecoming dress to Inde. Yep it was a successful day yay! Oh and the 1st and 2nd picture were suppose to connect ours heads to our bodies but instead it turned out to be a fail. Haha, I can’t wait to see all my friends from middle school (;
My first high school dance. It was pretty fun. Except, they shoulda played better songs. And they shouldn’t make water so expensive -___-. two bucks for a water bottle?! Crazzy haha. Anyways, got ready ish at my house, then went to noreens place. Changed, then got more ready. My hair got kinda messed up, so Tiffany did my hair. Then we went to the dance. Hella long line to get in. We were in the back, but then we just decided to go to the front and try to get to the person haha. Finally went inside, and we took pictures. A couples one, and one with just girls. Me and John were too poor to get our own picture lol. After, went in the crowd and I was like so amazed by how people were dancing lol. Danced with John, and took breaks. Slow danced with him too (: I thought it was so cute how when we were slowdancing and he just said I love you. It was like the perfect moment lol. Gave me the butterflies (: after, me john and dominic walked all the way to noreens house, it was dark and cold. They peed in bushes too haha. Finally got there, made a pb and j sandwich and went outside to them. I gave then like more than half my sandwich. It’s coo tho, cause i ate pizza when I got home. When my mom picked us up, we dropped off Stephanie and then John and dominic at johns place. Then mother let me drive home.
Was okaay. Had some tests that I think I failed. ): saw John on tuesday and Thursday. He asked me to homecoming (: he gave me like multiple colored roses. Bussed home like almost the whole week i think? And yeeah, went to homecoming. It was pretty good.
Was soooo fun. There was hella people tho. Probably cos it was a Saturday. Well Julie and Giselle came to our house at 6 then I was just looking for what to wear. It took at looong time haha. Then, waited for Angela, Patricia, Chesca, and Sheanna so we could leave. Then finally went. Got there at like 7 and just waited. John and Jiselle came and we went it. All of my cousins had their boyfriend to hang on to, except for Giselle, so Jiselle was her date for a while. Lol. Went into mazes, walked around, ate, and yeah. I didn’t get as scared as i thought i would, but i got pretty scared. I didn’t wanna go into any mazes at all, but i did. It was fun :D What scared me the most was in the Werewolf Maze when the guy had the chainsaw lol. Everyone screamed and everyone was like pushing me and John against the fence. Lol, i was pushing him too cause i was scared. Well i had lots of fun last night. I wanna do it again haha. But, go in like ALL the mazes this time. And i wanna go when there less people. I don’t think i’d be able to handle going there if John wasnt there. I get scared easily.
Wednesday, hmm I chilled at school, then bussed home. It was sooo hot.
Hm on Thursday was John and i’s 8 month anniversary! Yay. Haha . I stayed at schooI , then bussed to independence cos he came over on tuesday. At least I wasn’t alone on the bus this time haha.
Friday, went to independence again, hung out with John, then went to noreens house. Went to leannes house, lightrailed to great mall, went around like 2 times then light railed back. I loved walking back with then, especially when it’s dark. They’re hilarious ahah. Stayed at leannes, then got picked up after a fee hours.
Saturday: Went to Leanne’s house and then her dad drove us to Great Mall. Walked around, met up with Lowelyne, took Angel pix, and other stuff. It was Lowelyne’s first time at Angel pix ahah. It was fun tho. Then me, Lowelyne, and Leanne were just talking about personal stuff and alla that. Left the mall around 8 and just chilled at Leanne’s. Talking a looot.
Sunday: Went to Valleyfair with moomma. I drove all the way there ahah. It wasn’t too bad. And i parked perfectly for once! Yay. Spent forever in Macy’s, found a dress that I like, but now, idk if i like it so much anymore ahah. Then went to church and ate dinner at TK noodle.
Monday: Normal day of school. Nothing special. After school, walked with Pierson to get his violin then waited in the front for my cousin. She finally came, then waited for my other cousin and her friends. Then went to Target, then they dropped me off at Mickey D’s. And i had to walk home ahah. So did Giselle and her friends. Met up with Stephanie like when i was almost home, then showed her my dress choices, talked and yea. She sounded HORRIBLE! AHAH, no offense. I told her, lol. It’s just a sore throught. I made red velvet CAKE pops. Yummmy, they’re good.
We had an assembly today! Hahah, i got to act like a crow. It was fun tho. I was like laughing the whole time, but you couldn’t see cos of the beak. Lol. Hm, after school, John came. We just hung out there, then my dad picked me up. Jenny asked if i wanted to go to Valleyfair so I went. She picked me up and we went. Walked around, tried on dresses for Homecoming, took pictures and yea. Then left like around 10. I’m pretty tired. My eyes hurt and they’re red. Idk why.
Damn, we lost to the freaking freshman today in powderpuff! D: Gaaawsh. Oh well, it wasn’t that bad. 7-6. Ugh, but i still can’t believe we lost to freshman. -___-
Today, was a normal collab day. After school, talked and got advice from Stephanie. Lol, i heart that little munchkin. Hahah, jk. Then skit practice. Skit’s tmrw! I’m excited. I’m a crow, lol. Then after, took the bus to Independence. John was at the bus stop… then just walked around the park next the bus stop. We had problems, and we talked about it and we just forgot about it. I hate when that happens. -___-, i cried in front of him today too. D: I wanted to stay with him longer cos it got all emotional when I was gonna leave. But my dad was there so i HAD to go. I’ll hopefully see him tmrw tho. Went home, ate Wendy’s, took a little nap, then drove to the Powderpuff game at 6. It was kinda fun. But we fucking lost. D: Well anyways, i have to finish my book for English by tmrw! I have like 200 pages left! I’M NOT GONNA FINISH IN TIME. I’m reading Where the Heart Is. Well, wish me luck. :D
Monday: Normal day, not boring, but not interesting. Joined the homecoming skit.
Tuesday: Was pretty good. Went thorough school, then John went to PHHS. He was there like 10 minutes after the bell rang cause his mom dropped him off haha. We hung out, then he had to go to baseball practice there. So i watched. Waited til powderpuff. I didn’t have shoes or shorts so i ask Dominique and she let me borrow shoes and shorts. Hung out with powderpuff people. Went to the bathroom and the girls bathroom was locked so the custodian told us to us the boys. So we did. It smelled in there haha. We took pictures lool. Had practice. It was pretty fun, but it got dark, so we couldn’t do much after a while.
Wednesday: Was an okay day. I had a headache the whole day. D: The only good part was the powderpuff game during lunch. We went to the turf like 5 minutes before lunch ended and got ready to play. It was pretty hot. It was fun thoooo, but someone elbowed my arm and mouth. After school, just hungout with people, ate McDonalds, and then had skit practice. Waited for powderpuff practice, but it was raining so it was canceled. I waited til like 5:30 until i found out. My parents went to back to school night at inde tho so i had to bus home. I walked to the bus in the rain and the bus was about to leave when i was across the street, so i ran lol. Bussed, then wlked home. It was so lonely, but i cleared my mind off of things, which is good. I still have a headache tho, i’m probably gonna nap.
Last night, I slept at like 11 and woke up at 12. I only had one hour of sleep. -___-,and i had to wake up at like 4. I didn’t even go back to sleep. I was on the phone with John. Mostly arguing.. but it’s all good now i hope. He fell asleep on the phone, and I was lonely. D: Ahah, i got ready at like 5. I was so lazy. Then Stephanie came over, then we went to Jenny’s. Drove to Lake Cunningham. It was so dark. We had to walk and find the other people. It was so dark, like I couldn’t really see anything. I liked it haha. Learned how to do all the fishing stuff, then the little kids came. I partnered up with Jennifer and we got partnered up with Amy. Fished, talked, and didn’t catch anything. It’s okay tho, cause no one did aha. Jennifer’s cousin came, Jenny. And i got to meet her too. Ate, said bye to the kids, then went home. I left Lake Cunningham at like 1. My mom and sister picked me up and we went to Eastridge. Tried to look for a damn homecoming dress again, but failed agaaain. DDD: Geeeze, i’m probably just gonna borrow someone’s dress. Saw Mai looking for her dress too! Haha, and saw Anna after. Went to Great Mall after, then home. I was so exhausted, its not even funny. I had a headache too. No one woke me up to go to church either. I could’ve saw John at the festival too! D: But whatever, imma see him tmrw anyways.
Really fun day. First, went to the mall with my mom and Angela. Tried to look for a homecoming dress, but I couldn’t find one. D: and I lost my I.D. card, so i needa get a new one. After, drove all the way down to Pittsburg for the baby shower. It was really fun. I saw Nathan! He’s so cuuuute (= It was my second time seeing him. He’s like 2 years old. His brother is so mean to him tho. -___-, poor kid lool. We went in the jumper and just jumped and played around in there. Everyone was pushing everyone. Even the little babies ahah. My two fat nephews were jumping on me and wrestling me. Then, went into the pool. It was fun, the babies went in too. They don’t even know how to swim haha so i had to like carry one of them for a while. When I was getting out, Joan fucking pulled my bottoms down. FUCKING BITCH! Lmao, it’s all good tho, i guess. I’ll get her back. Changed, then played volleyball in the front. Ate. Walked to the park. Played basketball. Took pictures. And tons of other stuff. I LOOVE spending time with my family. <3
Okay, so I thought everything was good again, but I guess I was wrong. We always start talking about that other girl again.. it bothers me so much. Idk what to believe, like seriously. You can’t let her go cause she’s your bestfriend, i can tell. I thought i was you bestfriend. But i guess i cant be your everything so its alright. You always get so defensive when we talk about her. Today, I was gonna tell you that it’s okay and that I don’t care anymore. Because I know that your not gonna let her go no matter what. Well it seems like it to me.. But, when you told me you were with her, it just completely changed my mind.. uggh. I wish I was just one of those people who don’t give a fuck. But I am. Your my first bf and i’m like, inexperienced. Lool. I don’t really wanna ask or talk about this to anyone, because honestly, i’m like kinda embarrassed about this. But, other people have it worse than me,
& i bet if you see this, you’ll start to worry again.. I really hope no one tells you about this hahah. Cause there’s nothing to worry about. I just need time to get used to this.
you know what? i really don’t know what to do anymore.. your always acting like such a jerk lately. You just say it’s cause your cranky or sleepy, but you didn’t do this before. You always talked to me so sweetly and nice, but now its like the total opposite. Whenever we talk on the phone, you always answer me like your yelling. Even if your not, you don’t have to make it sound like you are. I don’t want to let you go. But i just don’t know if i can be treated like this anymore.
I deleted it because I thought I needed to focus on school and stuff. Plus, i didn’t want my parents to find it. But i just got really good. So I made on again. :D But now, i have to go follow everyone back. )= it’s gonna take some time.